Includes bibliographical references and index.

Foreword -- Prologue -- PART 1: I My Dear Speedy Gonzales! -- II A Widow Who Thought She Was Eighteen -- III Zigzagging on Hormonophobia -- PART 2: I My Body, My Life, My Choice -- II Start Small, Stay Small -- III On the Road with Menopozu Workshops -- PART 3: I Tell me, Doctor, What's Happening to Me -- II Alone is Beautiful: Is This Your Final Choice? -- III From Here Only A Political Vision Could... -- Epilogue: Ten Years later.

When her husband, distinguished theatre impressario Sir Donald Albery, died in 1988, Nobuko began spectacularly falling apart, mentally and physically. This is her exuberant account of her trials and errors, zigzagging between Europe and Japan, as she struggles to come to terms with her loss - no longer young, beloved husband no more.

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